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Saturday, August 29, 2009
That way, he could capture all the beautiful moments, and memories would be kept forever. I had this image of “him” taking candid pictures, in those I’ll see all the truth and the fake I would appear in “his” eyes. So that I could see myself; my true self. Beautiful memories would always create painful memories…I’ll always believe that. That is, how I’m feeling now. Who knows, maybe "he" ’ll change that fact? If you appear, please let me know. ----------------------------------------- In movies, in dramas, in mangas... all the images I had of friendship, of bonding, were all so wonderful, all so fun, all so dreamy, all so far away. I envy those actors, those characters. I had great friends, best friends…but we could not have that kind of bonding. Or so I thought… Those scenes I saw, playing together at the lake, flying lanterns with our dreams, on a train trip without caring where we are going, playing with fireworks and stay up late together… , all those seemingly normal get-togethers. We don’t have those… so we couldn’t have those kinds of fun. But we have our own kind of bonding. We chatted together. We laughed. We had fun. In just a months, or weeks… I had best friends that seems like they had been there for years . “True friends” are no longer a fantasy to me. I believed what I had doubt for many years before. I hope that our friendship can continue on. I really don’t want to lose you guys. And that, was from the bottom of my heart XD OMG...All this are VERY Cheesy....Was being emotional, you can ignore :P Posted by Yukari.由香里 at
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Was getting really depressed yesterday and couldn't get that feeling off even after I've slept. I guess I was too nervous. Funny thing about the maths paper was that out of the 15 chapters, only a few really came out. My friends were very pissed as they spent lots of time reviewing the last few (killer) chapters. Well, it wasn't that hard on me. I crammed my last minute revision (did finished the notes) and printed out last year's paper. In the end, when we have that 2mins reading time, I found out that some of the qns were exactly the same as last year! I was damn happy when the qn I asked came out and I knew how to do. (Was smiling all the way :P) Anyway, remembering the maths formula took up most of my memory space...so I was really tired after maths. It was OBC next and I really wanna study... end up slacking and sleeping anyways. It was about 10.30pm when I started cramming again. At that time, I was already feeling very depressed. Felt like giving up. But I tried my best....did my best... The obc paper was ok...for me, while others said it was easy. I think I could pass this module. Don't wanna repeat this stupid module again. Time-wasting, memory-wasting and psychologically-wasting....(if that even makes any sense...) Well, I don't feel like doing anything now, even though I still have IntroCB left and it is the module that I had failed, throughout ( I've passed a quiz and the retest...other than that, I'm guessing its an U grade T-T) But, hey! Two more days and I'm free!!! Just thinking of that made my heart so much lighter XD Posted by Yukari.由香里 at
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I was asked to buy coke for my mum. It couldn't be my bro cos his tuition teacher is coming in about 2 more minutes. So, I'm the only one left to do the work. Not locking the door, I went to the first floor and found out that the vending machine near the tennis court (nearest to my block) was crowded with ppl playing table tennis. Being the naturally-born-crowd-hater, I took a detour to the next block....by going through the B1 carpark (since the heat was killing me). Went up to that vending machine to find out that the 50 cent coins my mum gave me was invalid...So, I went walking all the way back to the first vending machine. It so happens that (luckily) the table tennis players are gone. I brought the Coke and was ready to head home. It was just another day of buying drinks... Surprisingly, once I reached my house door, I tried to push it but it just wouldn't open. I saw my bro's tuition teacher's shoe and the thought came to me: My bro had lock the door. Since it was just going down to buy a drink, I didn't bother to bring my keys nor my handphone with me. Our door bell was spoiled (for a long time already...my dad just didn't change it), my dad was out and wouldn't be back till tonight, my bro was having tuition in his room, my mum was resting in hers. No one could hear me banging the door... Wonderful. I have no idea how much time had passed...I didn't bring my watch either. I got tried of waiting, so I just opened that can of coke that was supposedly for my mum. I stood at the opening next to my house and "enjoyed the view while drinking coke" ( which actually has nothing to see cos its blocked by the block directly in front of mine). I got bored enough to re-read a few times on the nutrition section of the can. ( You know, the new coke can have the "Smile is worth a thousand words" slogan? It was damn funny when I saw the "made by the happy people from XXX factory in XXX....product created by the delighted XXX company" and etc....it was so FUNNY!) Anyway, my neighbour came in and out a lot of times but I was too hard-headed to ask for help...(partly cos we were in a bad start when they moved in. Those ppl came from China and were renting that unit. Furthermore, I don't really know them, so I was embarrassed by the fact that I got locked out...) I even pretended that I was out there for fun, and it was not a big deal at all. I even smiled at them when they walked pass, when in fact I was debating inside my head on whether I should ask for a phone...which in the end I didn't. Excellent. I thought about what I should do. I went down to the 1st floor again, thinking that maybe I'll just sit there and wait for a while. They'll eventually find out that I'm gone. I walked around my block, realising that those seats were either taken or directly opposite of the one taken. So.... I went back up again. I bang the door a few more time. This time, I really couldn't take it anymore. I walked all the way to Lot 1, to my parent's store, to borrow phone from one of their workers there. My mum was so shocked hearing my voice from that worker's phone. She even went "Hello?" the second time. Finally, I can enter my house again. Nice... Apparently my mum did notice how long I was taking to buy that one can of coke. Then, she thought, maybe I didn't wake her up cos she was resting and I just place it in the fridge. She told me that I could actually just go to the guard house to ask for a phone.... -_-''' (In the end, she had to go down herself to replace that can of coke I drank..) What an afternoon!! Posted by Yukari.由香里 at
Friday, August 7, 2009
Lost, they said, disappeared... The family waited anxiously at home. 1 day, 2 days, 3 days....a week had passed until they got a call that her father was found....dead. Devastated, the family was. A few days had passed and she was somewhere when she received another depressing news. Her mother and brother had passed away due to some poison, from a terrorist attack....most probably... They were somewhere together...but suddenly, they just disappeared... The girl was shocked....couldn't think straight... neither could she cry... the news just came in a little too hard. She just couldn't bare to look at their already cold bodies... for fear she might just lose it... It was still fresh, the memory. One moment she still had someone... another, she lost it all... She was all alone, an orphan... the "survivor". Too sudden...its all too sudden... As she sat on the train, thinking about how its just like yesterday, when her family were having fun together. Yes.....its was just like yesterday.... Hot tears rained down her cheeks.... not caring how the others were talking about her and her already swollen-red eyes... Went back to her home town, home country... preparing the black parade... she wore a light pink top, and a pair of casual jeans... her family would want to see her cheerful...like always... She stared at her reflection expression, emotion....numbed... oh yes...her family would want her to be cheerful...like always... she tried to smile... but even a little grin comes on too hard.. She broke down once more...... I had dream this, and was crying when I woke up. Tears had dried up around my eyes... The dream was like a month to me, too real and too sudden. When I woke up, I went out of my room and checked... My parents were still sleeping and my brother is still there. You have no idea how relieved and thankful I was.... This goes to show...too much sleep is not exactly THAT wonderful... Posted by Yukari.由香里 at |
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