Tue- TPFF (chap 3-5) quiz

Wed- Jap Speaking test

Fri- Maths (chap 4 to 6) and BPP ( chap 4 to 8) quiz

OMG, 4 tests in one week! It's just like CT period....

I really wanna prove something, it's no doubt I would WANT it. However, it's always the DOING that matters the most. Why can't I just organise my time? I felt so useless, even with all my outstanding friends beside me, and trying to help me....it's no good if I don't help myself.

I've always thought I could just do it, just like that. But I don't possess the ability to learn by just hearing it once, or just by reading through it. Which makes me wonder....why do people always call me "smart" during pri/sec days? I overestimated myself just because of that, and mercilessly I flanked my tests. However, surprisingly, that overestimation still doesn't stop. I had this "if I studied, this could be chicken-feet!" idea coming through my head...when I was staring at the 12 upon 50 paper! This is sad beyond....basically anything.

Same thing happened when people called me "pretty" since young. I've started to become vain, staring at the mirrors for hours, fixing my hair. The perfectionist I am since birth would not allow myself to have flaws. I kept complaining about my nose, my eyes, my eyebrows, my legs....basically everything and occasionally driving my friends nuts.

No wonder they say, "when they are pretty when they are young, they'll grow up ugly..."

I've started to wonder if it is all on purpose....